See…. nobody is going to believe me when I talk about this reality, because they “want” to stay in their subconscious programming that they’ve always been taught…  not only by their own parents, and individual experiences but also by years of the collective subconscious information that says that this is only possible. This or that is the only way.

They don’t really want to see outside of that box, because it would be a direct challenge against what they’ve been taught. It would bring into question Who and what they believe they are. It would contradict the “facts” (insert eyeroll emoji here). This goes against the rules of religion. Against the “universe.”  Against “karma.”  Against “how the world works.”

 Good thing the rules are not facts!!  

All the systems have something in common:  control and powerlessness.   

You have no power to create the reality that you want to be in.  You are a victim to circumstances. God is in charge. Your spirit guides are in charge. The universe is in charge. The planets rule you. You are told to always give your power away every day, and even taught that you don’t have any to begin with. You will never end up with what you really want because you don’t believe any differently. 

You may start to open up to a different belief, but then shut that down because you say that it’s not possible. You must believe that it’s possible! You must change that set up!

 If people would just watch the Matrix movie a couple more times, they would understand what they are really trying to say in that movie!! 

We are told there is a savior. There is a specific God, and we don’t compare to that God. that creator. We are small and weak, and we are just minions. life is about suffering and disease and death and hardship and lack of money and trauma.

 We need to learn to thrive, and that happens through understanding that our minds are there to show us a different way, and our souls are connected to our minds.

Our bodies are connected to our minds. Our subconscious minds can be programmed to see what we want to see show up!

What stands in the way are feelings that we are told to feel…guilt, shame, or the idea we are bad people if we want a lot of money, or if we want success or fame, or anything nice for ourselves unless it is aligned with what they want you to do.

Our traumatic experiences stand in our way. Trauma tells us that the future is going to be like the past and we play it safe.

It is just what we think we know, and we don’t believe that those things can be changed because we believe so much in logical 3-D reality and circumstances.

There is no faith in that.

They want to preach about faith, the evidence of things not seen.  But they do not want you to use your imagination to create.  They say do not live in a fantasy world.   Hmmmm sounds ridiculous to me.

We all have the power to do anything if we do it through beliefs, which is faith, faith is a belief.  Your whole reality is created from the beliefs we have been talking about above. Choose different beliefs.  You are allowed to do that!! Change!!!  I don’t have to write a book about it, because there are tons of books already written that are accessible to you right now!!!!!  Pick one up, sit down in your favorite spot and read!!! 

“You must assume that you already are what you want to be and then live by faith in this assumption. Living from the end means that you call the things which do not exist, as if they did.  It will chase after you if you can place into your imagination what it is that you would like to attract and begin to feel it that which you feel yourself to be you are, and you are given that which you are. so assume the feeling that would be yours were you already in possession of your wish and your wish must be realized.”

Wayne Dyer giving a speech. Check out his books “Wishes Fulfilled” and “Change your Thoughts, Change your Life.”

Also, read books by Neville Goddard, Joseph Murphy, Robert Russell, and Emmett Fox.

Here are some good Neville quotes: 

  You are free to choose the concept you will accept of yourself. Therefore, you possess the power of intervention, the power which enables you to alter the course of your future. The process of rising from your present concept to a higher concept of yourself is the means of all true progress. The higher concept is waiting for you to incarnate it in the world of experience.”

Neville Goddard, The Power of Awareness

“The world moves with motiveless necessity. By this is meant that it has no motive of its own, but is under the necessity of manifesting your concept, the arrangement of your mind, and your mind is always arranged in the image of all you believe and consent to as true. “

“Each person is born with an infinite power, against which no earthly force is of the slightest significance.”

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I wanted to share Mark’s post, because it hit home for me, and prompted me to write about my own experience with unexpressed emotions.

Wow. There is no doubt this is one of the reasons I got knocked on my ass with a physical illness. Inflammation related. Leaky gut for sure. Why I could no longer do high intensity workouts, and push all my emotions into sports and aggression. I ate my emotions. I literally swallowed them instead of expressing them.

I didn’t want to be viewed as weak.
I didn’t want to be the one to break down and “feel.”
I didn’t want to let someone see they “got to me”
I was so so angry and held in rage and pain.
I told myself I got it all out in sports. On the heavy bag.
I felt a release! But it was still unexpressed.
I didn’t set boundaries properly.
I didn’t want to set the truth out there for fear of feeling more. For fear of feeling more rejection that would appear as proof that I’m disposable.
Years ago, I stopped “chasing” women out of fear of abandonment and codependency when they would “run” from me! I was so proud of myself for stopping that behavior! I also felt like I had some dignity and self respect! And I did gain that!!

Then…. the pendulum swung the other way. I did nothing. Said nothing. Closed down and stopped talking. Convinced myself I was over it. I didn’t care.
But… it did allow me a pause to go within and examined my own triggers, heal my own unhealthy beliefs about myself, and love and relationships.
I sought to find the balance between reacting, and saying what I wanted, and expressing emotion, and chasing after a person …vs…
Responding, giving myself and the other person time, space, and then revisiting a situation in a more relaxed discussion. Stating my feelings instead of letting them take over.

But this is hard. This is really hard.

I still ended up eating more of the emotions, after the initial fact, saying it’s not worth it. Fuck it. I don’t even care anymore I’m not going to say anything. I’ll deal with it on my own. It’s just a trigger for me to examine. I also process way too long now. Once in a great while I will say something in the immediate that I don’t mean and that is from emotional reflex. This usually isn’t helpful. It is rare I do it! But if I process too long, I end up not saying anything at all. The moment has passed now. The emotional charge is not at the surface. It’s now embedded inside of myself like a tick. Great. So which is worse? Lol

Hurt the other person, say shit off the cuff, and harm the relationship.. or hold it in, wait, process, and end up eating it.. which harms yourself… AND the relationship.
After doing the latter for a while I became sick. Physically sick.
You cannot always turn inward and say that you can deal with everything on your own. Sometimes expression needs to happen and a discussion with another person. Other times it doesn’t and it’s just for you to see your patterns.
Even other times, a discussion may need to be had but the other person is not in a place where it would be possible to have one that would have any decent outcome aside from more hurt and frustration.

Learning that discernment is really tough! Get yourself a really good guide to take you through that. That is what I did! I had wonderful coaches, and a great supporting therapist.

This post is part of my practice of expression. Getting it out.
I am no longer eating anything that I don’t want to eat….That I wouldn’t want to feed somebody else. It needs to be out there. It needs to be released.
Burning rage and anger need expressed. I thought I was doing it in healthy ways and that it was leaving my body. The inflammation that I still have tells me I still have more work to do. So I may be saying some shit soon LOL
Often times that anger and rage turns into bouts of crying. And feeling really sad. Usually that is when I release it on my own. And a lot of the times I’m telling somebody in that moment what’s happening. And they are holding a space for me.

Unexpressed feelings, and pain, turns into massive anger and rage at others as well as at the self. At the situation. At life. Especially with us masculine energy people.

That is why Prayer and meditation are huge. Huge.
I am teaching a mini meditation course right now. Because it’s so essential to healing your mind and body.
My body suffered so much from years of panic and anxiety, years of unexpressed pain and anger, years of abandonment and rejection of self, years of not choosing myself, years of not respecting and loving myself, years of being controlled by my own codependent worries and fears.
My unlayering process began in 2012. And what a beautiful journey it has been.

I have had massive lessons learned over the past eight years. Massive pain. And massive healing.
In 2012, I said to myself, I’m not gonna be a therapist if I can’t figure out how to deal with some of my own issues. God listened. He said OK, I’ll make sure that you get what you need in order to do your mission in life. Ohhh boy did He ever! 🤦🏽‍♀️

If this is something you are dealing with and need guidance, feel free to reach out and book a session with me.